Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Cooked some yummy dinner for myself and watched stupid sappy Coming of Age Movie. I laughed. I cried. I cried some more and felt like an idiot for crying so much. I laughed again, and this time it wasn't at the movie.
I had a dream last night that I was pregnant. I'm sure that most women and a number of men have these dreams, and if you're lucky (or unlucky as may be the case) enough to remember them, you should know how powerful they can be. I can't stop thinking about it, thinking about if maybe it was real. In the dream I was thinking about how I wouldn't be able to row the boat now because I might hurt my baby. I remember that I didn't want to be pregnant anyway and so thought I'd row the boat and hope for the best. I remember asking my mother what happens when someone has a miscarriage. In the dream I thought, I'll have to take a semester off from school. I tried to count the months until I could go back. Impossible.
It's easy to dream here. I walk outside and everything I see is beautiful. Next week I'm going to hike to the top of the mountain, which apparently is only a couple miles from here. Now it's dark outside, and I'm glad I brought my flashlight with me because, darling, when I say dark, I mean it.
P.S. Today I learned how to drive the CLUB CAR!
P.P.S. Troy: My days off are Monday and Tuesday, so if you want me to come down some time, let me know. Otherwise I'll come down anyway, but likely continue my hermit-ish habits.
P.P.P.S. Come visit me, please. You don't have to sleep in my bed if you don't want to... there are seven others to choose from. Unless you're AMcG, in which case we already have an understanding.
I had a dream last night that I was pregnant. I'm sure that most women and a number of men have these dreams, and if you're lucky (or unlucky as may be the case) enough to remember them, you should know how powerful they can be. I can't stop thinking about it, thinking about if maybe it was real. In the dream I was thinking about how I wouldn't be able to row the boat now because I might hurt my baby. I remember that I didn't want to be pregnant anyway and so thought I'd row the boat and hope for the best. I remember asking my mother what happens when someone has a miscarriage. In the dream I thought, I'll have to take a semester off from school. I tried to count the months until I could go back. Impossible.
It's easy to dream here. I walk outside and everything I see is beautiful. Next week I'm going to hike to the top of the mountain, which apparently is only a couple miles from here. Now it's dark outside, and I'm glad I brought my flashlight with me because, darling, when I say dark, I mean it.
P.S. Today I learned how to drive the CLUB CAR!
P.P.S. Troy: My days off are Monday and Tuesday, so if you want me to come down some time, let me know. Otherwise I'll come down anyway, but likely continue my hermit-ish habits.
P.P.P.S. Come visit me, please. You don't have to sleep in my bed if you don't want to... there are seven others to choose from. Unless you're AMcG, in which case we already have an understanding.
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